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Thursday, November 16th, 2006
9:31 pm - FINISHED!!
WOW. I just finished reading the book and it was amazing. My initial reaction after finishing it was sadness and suprise. The end of the letter "Bolt us to the hood of your traveling machine and take us on the road again." was so touching. I don't think there could have been a better way to end the story. Another part that stood out to me was the part right after the fire when Horst is explaining that Al died, and how Lil goes over to him and says "We will start all over." That part for me was so sad. I was very suprised at the ending. For one, when I was reading about the fire, I didn't think that almost everyone in the family would die. And then after I got over that, I never thought Oly would die. I figured she would finally tell her daughter who she was and lead a happy life with her. This book has suprised me at every turn and that's what I love about it. I didn't realize it at the beginning but it is actually such a sad story. The whole thing just leads up to the day of the fire when everyone dies. I wish they all could have just solved everything and went back to living like a loving family instead of everything finally blowing up and it ending the way it did. I really fell in love with the characters in this story. Ok, so it was about circus freaks, but really you get to see that they are normal to themselves, that they love each other like families should, and really they have a lot of things in common with any of us. I'm so glad we had to read this book for class. I wish this story would be made into a movie.

current mood: touched

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12:47 am - Part III- -Arty
Ok, so I still haven't finished it, but I'm getting very close and there is one thing that I wanted to post about that is very interesting to me. Arty. In the beginning of the book I hated him. I hated what he was doing to Chick, I hated him for killing the Alligator girl (if he did). And then, I don't know when it happened, but one day, I liked him. I found myself wanting to read more about the relationship between him and Oly, wanting to see how the whole baby thing came about (especially since I found out in class that he was the father). But I was a little confused about who he loved. He spends so much time with Oly, and in one part he gets extremely mad when he finds out she is pregnant because he thinks it is from someone else. So there are many hints in the story that can point to Arty loving Oly. But the book also mentions him loving Iphy. When the twins are getting the surgery done, I think it is the reporter who says that Arty asks about Iphy like 6 times a day and even he knows that Arty loves her. Iphy seems to love him back because she always wanted to sit by him when they were younger and things like that. And maybe he is so angry that the twins are having sex with guys for money because he loves her, or maybe just because they are his sisters and it is a family kind of love. Or maybe he loves Iphy and Oly. haha...It's confusing. But all in all I love the character of Arty, although I think he is very confusing at times.

AND another thing...I'm at the part where Oly has the baby. She is saying that Arty will hate the baby becuase she only has a little tail. Well, then why did the twins get to keep their baby? Yeah, it was fat, but didn't someone say at one point in the book that fat people went out of style sometimes? (OR was that from a presentation? I cant remember) Anyway, if you ask me a tail is a little more special than just being chubby, and plus Al said that for all they knew, the baby could be skinny by the time he was two anyway. Just a thought...

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Wednesday, November 15th, 2006
5:10 pm - Geek Love- -Part II
Ok, so I'm trying my hardest to finish the book. I know it was supposed to be finished by today and I tried to read as much as I could but I was glad that we didn't get to talking about it in class. I'm excited now to see how the book ends and I read a lot more each time I pick it up than I used to, but it's hard for me to find time to read it because some days I am so busy. Anyway, I have about 5 chapters left, and so far I have some questions.
1. Starting from the middle of the book, Al did everything Arty told him to, even if he didn't like it. Why? Was it because Arty was becoming more and more successful and making so much money? I just keep thinking that if Al had taken control of the situation from the beginning, then Arty would not have torn apart the family.
2. When Oly becomes friends with Miss Lick, does she eventually start living with her? She talks about her "new apartment," and I couldn't figure out whether it was in Miss Lick's house or what.
3. Something else was a little unclear. Did Chick ever actually work in the show at all? I know he pretty much did a whole bunch of stuff for everybody, but I guess when the show went on noone ever actually saw him. When he was born Al said that he was the most special one yet, although I guess they hide his power to avoid people wanting to kidnap him or whatever.
4. Another thing I don't understand is what exactly Dr. P. did to Elly. I was expecting her to be like actually cut off of Iphy, but I guess she couldn't totally do that? Elly just hangs there and does nothing, but she is still alive?
5. Also, when Chick did the surgery on Dr. P., did he just cut off her arms and legs like she did to everyone else? I thought that was a little unclear as well.
Well, that's all for the question for now. Once I'm done I'll post with my thoughts on the entire book.

current mood: content

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Monday, November 6th, 2006
11:35 pm - Geek Love Part I
What can I say about it? I'm only on chapter 7 but already I feel like I have forgotten half the things I read. I barely ever read an entire chapter in one sitting. It holds my interest, yet it doesn't. When I'm reading it I want to know what happens next, yet there's nothing stopping me from putting it down. One main thing I'm wondering right now is: Why doesn't Crystal Lil know her own daughter anymore? (Olympia?) It is also a little confusing how it goes from present to past and back again. Also, the main character is extremely complex to me. Why doesn't she just tell her daughter who she is? Instead she just follows her around all day? The same goes for her mother-if she even wants to have a relationship with her-how come she doesn't just say "I'm your daughter!"? She obviously wants to have some sort of family relationship because she goes to her room and looks at the old circus posters and also lets her daughter paint her. She seems very shy and independent and easily broken down. Yet I feel like she is also strong in some way. She tells her daughter that she never wished to be normal and wants her daughter to keep her tail because it makes her special. Being this different from the rest of the world takes strength, and if she just let it out, I think she could be much happier. (Don't forget I haven't read the whole thing yet, so who knows, it might happen.)
Another thing I was a little confused about was in the beginning...what exactly do they mean when they say geek? Killing chickens? Eating them? I wasn't sure...but that's gross.
Well, I think that's about all I have to say about the book for now. It is a lot to take in at once, so I can't even think of any themes yet (except for abnormality and fitting in, but that's obvious). I look forward to finding out what happens, and I'm sure once we talk about it a little more, I'll understand it and once I'm done I'm sure I will like have liked it.

current mood: confused

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11:06 pm - V for Vendetta Movie
Well I have to say that I absolutely loved the movie. It was great to finally see the story come alive. Yes, there were a few things that I thought the directors should have included, but overall, I thouroughly enjoyed it. I especially liked the part at the end when Evey was saying how V was everyone and it showed them all taking off their masks. I thought this was a very clever way to show that a little bit of V existed in everyone. One thing I was a little upset about was that at the end I expected to see Evey actually putting on V's mask and becoming him. I know it is implied in the movie that she does become him, but after reading the book I expected to see this and I thought it would have been a great finish. Another thing I didn't like was that they took out the part where Finch goes on his little LSD trip. I think this was important to the story because it shows just how hard he was trying to understand V. In the movie I felt that they kind of overlooked how hard Finch was trying, and even when he finally did discover what had happened I still felt like he didn't understand it fully. When we talked about the whole thing with Gordon's character being gay, I think we came to the conclusion that it was to show culture. Adding to that, I think it also is another way to show opposition to the government. Gordon owned all of those pictures and the Koran, which were forbidden. He himself made the skit which eventually got him killed, so I think the reason for Gordon's character in the movie was just to defy government in another way.
Although they decided to change the movie quite a bit, I still felt satisfied after watching it. I agree that it is a little unbelievable, but I loved the fight scenes and really just the entire idea behind V. I'm really glad we had to read it for class.

current mood: indifferent

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Friday, November 3rd, 2006
3:07 pm - Assignment # 3
Here's my assignment: http://astro.temple.edu/~tua17752/index.html

I hope it works!!

current mood: ecstatic

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Thursday, October 19th, 2006
11:48 pm - V
Well, I finished V a couple days ago,(this post is a little delayed) and I definitely enjoyed it. I was confused about a few things though. I had a lot of trouble distinguishing the male characters throughout the entire book (as we talked about) and even the female characters sometimes too. I didn't really understand the whole camp thing. I know it was a big part of the story, but I was still confused as to why it was there in the first place. But after talking about it in class, that has been cleared up for me. I guess I had trouble understanding it because it isn't really something I'm used to hearing about. Another part that confused me was when Evey was living with that one guy for a while. I felt like the story jumped from V leaving Evey to her living with that guy (Gordon?) and nothing in between. Eventually, that was cleared up, but one very confusing thing about the novel was how it jumped from place to place like that.
Overall, I thought the whole story was extremely clever. The way V controlled fate the whole time was definitely an eye opener. Everything he did was creative and smart. Even his home was intricate and intelligent. At the end, I thought it was great how Evey took over after he died. I love how she found a boy just like V found her. The story is going to start all over again. I think that is one of the most clever elements of the entire story. When Evey did take over, that was something I never expected, although looking back I guess I should have. Well, I really can't wait to see the movie now, and I actually already started working on my project for assignment 3.

current mood: cheerful

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Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
10:38 pm - V
Well, I know it's a little early but I just got done reading the first book of V for Vendetta. One thing that Im confused about is the camp. When I first heard about it I thought about the concentration camps back in WWII. Obviously these are a little different, but I wondered why such a camp existed in the year 1993 (I think thats when it was). Maybe I'll find this out later in the book. So far I am really impressed by V's cleverness. The fact that he killed so many people doesn't even seem to phase me. It makes me wonder "Was he always this clever or was it really the "Batch 5" that made him crazy?" This book is really starting to get good and I look forward to finding out a lot more (especially since I haven't seen the movie).
Another thing I didn't understand was chapter 5. When the leader talks about love...does he love the computer?!? I was very confused. And as for V, why does he have this long speech with a statue? I guess maybe to make his love for justice known and to show that what he is doing is right. But then he changes his mind and loves anarchy. Hmmm...maybe in the beginning he was doing all of these things to get revenge, but now he is doing it for a different reason. Maybe because he actually likes killing people? I don't know, but it makes me wonder...

current mood: chipper

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Saturday, October 7th, 2006
5:45 pm - Assignment 2
The first story I chose for this assignment is The Scheme of Things. I believe the central theme of this story is feeling lost and empty. There are many passages that reinforce this. The story starts at a gas station in a small town in Iowa. “Lance sat on the warm hood, listening to the wind rustle in the corn. Brown clouds of soil rose from the fields and gave the air a sepia tint. Harvest dust settled over the leaves of a few dying elms, over the windows of a cinder block building, over the trailers in the courtyard across the street.” This passage gives you the image of a vast area that is dry and dusty. The town is quiet. This enhances the emotional conflict of the characters because it is a big, lonely place. “Years of sunlight had slowly paled the wallpaper in the living room and drained the red from the plastic roses on the sill. A familiar path was padded into the carpet and a pair of suede slippers waited at their place by the sofa. The air in the house was warm and still and faintly stale like a held breath.” Here you get a mental picture of what Gen and Effie’s big, old farmhouse looks like. The description tells of the faded colors in the house, which I believe can symbolize a life that was once happier, but is now drained of most of the fun.
“Kirsten sat in a child’s chair, looking at herself in the mirror of a vanity that had also doubled as a desk at one time --- beside the perfume bottles and a hairbrush and a box of costume jewelry were cups of crayons and pens and pencils and a yellowed writing tablet.” This is the bedroom of Gen and Effie’s dead daughter. It has not been changed since she died. It is still and uninhabited, except for this day. This passage shows the connection Kirsten has to the old woman Gen. Gen has lost a daughter, and Kirsten never knew her real mother. Kirsten sleeping in the child’s room can be interpreted as her being a daughter to Gen. Gen cares for her and even gives her clothes to wear, something that she hasn’t been able to do since her daughter died.
“Main street was wide and empty, the storefronts colorless in the flat light. A traffic signal swaying over the only intersection ticked like a clock in the quiet.” I believe this passage is a very important one because it really brings out the central theme. We can picture a big, empty town that looks utterly lifeless. Again it talks about the “colorless storefronts.” This symbolizes the meaningless, lonely life that Kirsten leads.
These passages and many more reinforce the theme of feeling lost inside. There are many places in the story where you read about big, empty places. Kirsten has lead a not-so-exciting life so far, and unless she does something to change it, it will never be anything more.
The next story I chose was First Four Measures. Much like The Scheme of Things, a central theme in this story is loneliness. “. . .they told me that a single individual --- especially a fourteen-year-old --- staying alone in a large house like ours actually makes the house seem even emptier than with no one there at all.” Already we have the image of the boy’s house. It is very big and seemingly lifeless, especially when his parents go away. This is exactly the way the boy feels. He is somewhat neglected by his parents, and does not have a lot of friends. He feels lonely and empty inside.
“The church auditorium was large and echoing, with two grand pianos, a darkened stage with heavy velvet curtains, and a side room where mechanical floor polishers and cleaning supplies were stored.” Just like the boy’s house, the church is huge and empty. Just by reading this passage you get a sense of overwhelming loneliness.
“The eerie music filled the room, and I imagined how the music would sound being played in my house. How the whole place would be filled with what I was producing from my hands --- this music that I was trusted and talented enough to learn. I pictured the empty rooms filling like a flood, the house drowned in my accomplishment.” When he pictures himself playing the music, it represents how badly he wants to be accepted. The empty rooms filling like a flood would wash away his sense of loneliness. The house drowned in his accomplishment symbolizes that he wants his parents to recognize his talent.
These passages show that a lonely, young boy only wants some attention from everyone, including his parents. He wants to feel loved and accepted. Mrs. Spence is the only one who has befriended him in his time of need.

current mood: sick

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Monday, October 2nd, 2006
4:01 pm - Bohemians
I don't really know what to say about this story. It was pretty short and seemed kind of bland to me. At the same time it didn't totally bore me.
One thing I never expected was that Mrs. Poltoi turned out to be a genuine, kind-hearted woman, but I guess that's the point of the story. I think that most people think Mrs. Poltoi is mean is because she's an old woman who lives alone. Granted, taking the kids' ball and calling America a "spoiled child ignorant of grief" doesn't make her sound like the nicest person in the world, but I think she's just lonely. Noone ever gave her a chance to be anything but mean. Once the boy stayed with her, her nurturing side came out, and he found out that she really wasn't that bad. She also genuinely feels bad about pushing Eddie which shows that she at least has some heart.
I didn't expect Mrs. Hopanlitski to turn out to be a wacko, although I guess the boy's parents not wanting him to stay with her was a hint.
Other than the two women, I didn't really find much else in the story that stuck out in my mind. I guess the moral of the story is not to judge the book by the cover. The meanest looking person can turn out to be the most kind-hearted, and vice versa.

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3:46 pm - The Scheme of Things
I know this post is a little late, but I just moved into a new dorm and am having internet problems. This is the first time i could get to a computer...I hope this post is still accepted.

This story held my interest until the end. For some reason I love the stories about criminals and drugs. haha After I finished reading it, though, I was a little confused. Was the little girl in the wheat field really a ghost? And how did Kirsten know? When she and Lance first asked the old woman to stay the night, how did Kirsten know the woman's daughter was dead? I also wondered why the first old woman (the one who was baking cookies and making halloween costumes for her children) reacted so strangely to Kirsten and why she hurried her out the door when her husband came home.
I think a theme of this story may be the feeling of being lost. Gen and Effie were lost without their daughter. The dead little girl was lost and couldn't find her way home, even though she said she could. Lance and Kirsten were lost because their lives had no meaning. They spent their days wandering around looking for the next person they could scam a dollar off of. Although they might think the life they have now is better than delivering flowers or tearing movie tickets, at least then they had jobs. At least they knew that they would have food and clothing. Another thing that reinforces the theme is the fact that Kirsten grew up in foster care and never knew her real mother. The setting also helps play a part in the theme. "Main street was wide and empty, the storefronts colorless in the flat light. A traffic signal swaying over the only intersection ticked like a clock in the quiet." (PG 136) This description also gives you a sense of loneliness, maybe hinting at the loneliness that Kirsten feels because she never knew her mother.
Overall I enjoyed the story although there were some confusing elements.

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Sunday, October 1st, 2006
4:20 pm - death defier mandatory post
Death Defier starts off on a highway in the middle of Mazar and Kunduz, two cities in Afghanistan. Four men are trying to escape from the war that is going on directly behind them. The place is a dusty, empty, dry desert. No matter where you look, there is nothing to see. The men who are stranded there seem to have negative outlooks on things, but how could they not? They have been through so much (Donk has been through 3 wars, Graves has had malaria, they were robbed). The setting reinforces the fact that the main characters seem to be stern and empty inside. I also think they are somewhat indifferent to certain things that happen to them.
One theme that is present in this story is definately death. It is evident everywhere. The story takes place as a war is happening. Donk is a photographer who has seen his share of death. He was there when his father died. Yet death does not seem to affect him the way it wold affect others.
A second theme in this story is chaos. Again, the story takes place during a war which is always chaos. Donk talks about how there are Chaos people and Order people. He says that Afghans were Chaos People and knew it, and that Chaos People's countries went insane and typically stayed that way.
The third theme I found is that the story is very grim and bleak. Not one positive thing happens throughout the entire thing. Death is present everywhere, which adds to the mood. Both Donk and Graves watched at least one parent die in the hospital. And now Donk was watching Graves die. The story is really pretty depressing.
My question about the story is if Donk hated death so much (as he says on page 201), why did he surround himself with it?

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Sunday, September 24th, 2006
7:00 pm - Questions for assignment #1
I just want everyone to know that I'm sorry if the story is too graphic. I tried my best to keep it as innocent as possible, but pretty much failed at that.


1. A changed point of view definately changes the flow of the story. Depending on which POV you are writing in, you can get a lot more information. Sometimes you get to know what the character is thinking. Sometimes you get to know what more than one character is thinking. Different points of view have different advantages.
2. The ending is different. Since it is being told by a different character, there is some missing information. I also wrote the story under the assumption that everyone read it, (which they did) so I don't think outsiders would necessarily understand it if they read it.
3. I guess I would say that Gwen pretty much percieves events in the same way that the original narrator does. I tried to include all the main events of the original story. I also think she interpreted her and Bobby's relationship the same way because they would both do anything for each other.
4. I think the author chose Bobby to narrate the story because he wanted to give insight into his mind. I think that choosing Gwen to narrate the story is a good choice, but not necessarily better than choosing Bobby to narrate it. Whether or not I did a good job of re-telling it, I don't know.
5. The only new information that you would gain from reading my story is what Gwen is thinking. I tried to add her thoughts in wherever I could, but I think I probably could have added even more. I don't think reading my story would change anyone's thoughts too dramatically. The only way I could see someone's thoughts changing is if they grew very fond of Gwen. Then in the end they would be even sadder that she died.

Well, hope everyone liked my story, and again, sorry if it's a little intense.

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6:59 pm - Assignment #1
It was a hot summer night when I first laid eyes on Bobby.  I wandered aimlessly through the wheat field where I used to play when I was a kid.  As I looked up, I saw a figure in the distance.  I stepped forward slowly, trying to catch a glimpse of who it was.  Once he spotted me, I turned around to run, but looking back I noticed that he was standing still, peering in my direction.  I stepped forward once more, and he did the same. When we finally got close enough to touch, I could tell he was about my age.
“I’m Gwen,” I said.
“I’m Bobby. What the hell are you doing out here all by yourself anyway?”
“I live right over the hill. Besides, I’m a big girl. I can take care of myself.”
He smiled at me and I smiled back, trying not to focus on the butterflies fluttering around in my stomach. We walked around the field a little, talking and laughing as we went.
We had been talking for hours before we realized what time it was, and we decided to watch the sun come up before we said goodbye. I rested my head on his shoulder and felt him brush the hair from my eye. He left most of his past a mystery to me, but I still felt like I knew him. I looked up at him, and before I could open my mouth to speak, he kissed me.
Bobby came back to see me every day for two months. When he told me he had to leave, I cried, and I decided that never seeing him again wasn’t good enough for me. “I’m coming with you,” I told him.
“What? You can’t. Gwen, you have a life here. I’m just a fuck up. Trust me, I wish I could be with you every day, but it’s not worth leaving this place for me.”
“Bobby, don’t you see? I don’t care that you never went to school or that you've made mistakes. I love you for who you are. I want to see the country with you. I want to have more in my life than living in this lonely Nebraska town, thinking about how it could’ve been. I won’t let you go without me.”
He stared at me for a long moment, and just when I thought he was going to walk away, he smiled, took me in his arms and kissed me.
That was two years ago.
Bobby once told me a story about Sumner, West Virginia. He told me that every once in a while someone finds a diamond left over in the mines from a plane crash. There was a rumor going around that a guy by the name of George Brunda found one as big as a casino chip. While we were shooting pool at the bar one night, he walked in. George joined the game, and I saw the worries written on his face. “Probably hasn’t been laid in twenty years,” I said to Bobby when George went to the bathroom. “It’s sad. Poor sad George. Never knew love.” I kissed him hard on the lips. We knew what we had to do.
We searched George’s house from top to bottom. We found nothing. “Where’s the mother stay again?” I asked.
So for a day, I became a nurse and Bobby an orderly. Gentleman Pete stayed out in the car and Bobby’s father watched the entrance to the mine where George worked. As soon as we got into the room, we went to work. I almost felt bad as I injected the old lady with Phenobarbital and Valium and Bobby started looking around the room. Then something went wrong.
George walked into the room as soon as Bobby found it. At first, he smiled and stepped right back out. I panicked. “Maybe we ---“
But he came barging back into the room, this time with a gun in his hand. He started shooting everywhere but at us, and I was thankful for his bad aim as I ducked and covered my head. Before it seemed like even a moment had passed, I heard a short “Ooof” out of the old lady. I looked up and saw her falling out of the bed. She wasn’t exactly the smallest lady in world, and I had to move to avoid being hit by her. “You shot my mother,” George said to Bobby with a blank look on his face. He dropped the gun. Although it was hard to draw my attention away from the old woman laying dead on the floor, I craned my neck to look over the bed at Bobby. I sensed the fear in him, sweat almost dripping from forehead.
“You shot your mother,” Bobby said back.
“No, you did.”
“Who was holding the fucking gun?” Bobby shot back at him.
George came over, knelt down and cradled his mother’s head in his hands. We ran as fast as we could out of that place.
As soon as we were safe in the car, I couldn’t help but bring it up again. “You saw it, right? He shot his own mother.”
“He did?”
“He did,” I said. “Baby, she’s not going to die from that.”
“Maybe. She’s old.”
“She’s old, yeah. The fall from the bed was worse.”
“We shot an old lady.”
“We didn’t shoot her.”
“In the ass.”
“We didn’t shoot anyone. He had the gun.”
“That’s how it’ll play, though. You know that. An old lady. Christ.”
I looked at him and imitated the “Ooof.”
“Don’t start,” he told me.
“I can’t help it, Bobby. Jesus.” I started to laugh, but it wasn’t funny. It was sad. I laughed at the old lady falling out of bed. I laughed as the wind blew my hair across my face. I couldn’t believe that all in a single moment everything that could have saved us had gone so horribly wrong.
By this time I saw the glow of siren lights drawing closer and closer. The window suddenly broke into a million tiny glass pieces, flying everywhere into the backseat where we sat. We hit the highway exit barrier fast and hard, and as airbags exploded in the front seat I said in disbelief “What happened? Jesus. What happened?” Bobby pulled me out of the back door. We ran across the exit ramp and into the woods where a second shot skimmed past his head. The rain was falling hard and there was blood pouring down his face. We ran for what seemed like forever, and when we finally thought that we had lost them, we stopped to take a breath. Bobby was already puking blood by this time, so I decided that I had no choice but to take him to the hospital.
While Bobby laid in the woods, I tried desperately to find a car. I couldn't exactly go back the way I came, so I ran in the opposite direction and hoped for the best. Luckily it wasn't very far to the other side of the highway, so I flagged down the first person who would stop. I got inside, and before he could get the car moving again I hit him as hard as I could in the face. Once he was knocked out, I dragged him into the backseat and ran to get Bobby.
Saying goodbye to him was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I wondered whether I would ever see him again. I didn't even know if he was going to make it through the night. Before I left, though, he told me to never stop running, because if I did, his father would find me. I leaned over to give him one last kiss, and as I did, I felt him slip something into my coat pocket.
For the first few months I was fine, but after a while running away started to get to me. I knew I couldn't live that way forever. I finally decided to settle in one place, and one day, just as I knew it would happen, I woke up to find myself in total darkness, hands tied behind my back and tape over my mouth. It was a very small space, and as soon as I felt movement I knew I was in the trunk of a car.
It was pitch black outside when the car finally stopped and the trunk opened. As I looked up, the only thought running through my head was that this was the last face I was ever going to see. Bobby's father picked me up out of the trunk and carried me inside an abandoned building. He took the tape off of my mouth, but left my hands tied. I screamed.
"Scream all you want," he said. "Noone can hear you. Do you think I'm that stupid?"
I said nothing. The fear was too much to bear. I was dripping sweat, and my eyes were welling up with tears.
He smiled a wicked smile as he unbuttoned my night-shirt. "I'm gonna have a little fun with you," he said as he slid the blade of a knife down my chest. He ripped the rest of my night-shirt off of me and cut the sides of my underwear. He stepped back for a minute to look at my naked body with the same evil smile on his face.
I was crying uncontrollably. I have never felt so helpless in my entire life. He unzipped his pants. He sat down on a chair and told me to get on my knees. His big hands grabbed me by the hair and pulled my head up and down as I struggled to breathe. After a minute or so, he stood up made and me bend over the chair. I felt him hard and fast and I screamed at the pain. "Shut the fuck up, bitch," he yelled. I bit my lip and closed my eyes, tears still streaming down my cheeks.
It was over quick. He threw me down on the floor and zipped his pants. "Fun's over. Now where is it?"
"You'll never find it," I snapped back at him. Although I was totally blinded by tears, a smile came across my face. He knelt down and I spit in his eye.
"Ahh!" he screamed. "That's it," he said, and stabbed me hard in the side of my stomach.
I screamed in agony as blood gushed out of my side. I knew this was the end. "I'll give you one more chance," he said.
"I'll never tell," I shot back at him.
He rose his knife again and stabbed me fast in the opposite side. I screamed again. He stabbed me two more times. As I laid there on the brink of death, all I could think about was Bobby. Maybe I should have never stopped running. As long as I stayed alive just until he got out of jail, we would find each other again and start all over. Now that was never going to happen. He raised his knife one final time.

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Thursday, September 14th, 2006
7:56 pm - Unit Gwen
As soon as I read the first sentence of this story I knew it was going to be interesting. After I finished, I felt a mix of different things. I actually felt bad for the main character. It was sad that he lost the one person he loved most (or maybe the only person he truly loved). The last paragraph made me feel so sad, especially when he said that he wished he took her picture just once. I was also a little surprised by the ending. I couldn't believe that his father only intended to kill him. It just goes to show the things that people would do to get a hold of money. I thought the story was clever and well written because it was in plain language that everyone could understand.
The main character is very interesting because although he is a criminal who just got out of jail, the story shows that he has the ability to care about someone and also that he may have a softer side that just needs to be brought out. Generally I don't think people look at criminals this way, so it's nice to get a different perspective. He is obviously very lonely and would apparently do anything to get Gwen back. I think Gwen symbolizes the life that the character never had. Deep down, I think he longs to have someone to love and someone that he knows won't leave him. He wants someone to know and to know him because all his life he has never been sure of who he was.
Overall, I liked this story a lot. I wonder what the character's next step will be. He is now totally alone and the only things he has left are his memories.

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Monday, August 28th, 2006
9:41 pm - new to this
Hey everybody! I just set this thing up and its a little confusing, but I'm sure I'll get the hang of it. Anyway, my name is Wendy Lazevnick and I'm a sophomore majoring in elementary ed. I live in the Edge. I like listening to music and hanging out with friends. I guess that's all I have to say right now, but I look forward to reading everyone's blogs!

current mood: cheerful

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